Last na cut ko na yung kanina. Mag-aaral ako ng mabuti para sa mga long exams ko this week. At mas lalo akong mag-aaral para sa finals ko next week. Babawasan ko na ang pagbabad sa internet. Mag-aaral ako para mataas grades ko. Promise yan. Promise!


Good afternoon.

I am concerned that I have not written anything of substance in my blog. This is quite surprising for me because I am by nature a substantial person. Lol. I’m just kidding. And I know a lot of you would disagree.

I woke up at 3 this morning. Usually when this happens to me I have something to think about or something that I have to do. It’s my body’s mechanism to let me know. It’s like the other day; I woke up at the same time and instantly realized that I had not turned the alarm on before I went to sleep. So I did it and promptly fell asleep. This time around, no thoughts. No burning activity to do anything. So I was laying there racking my brains out. And still nothing. And then I got to thinking about the conversation I had with my cousin last last year?. She said that when this happens, someone is thinking or talking about you. I agreed with her then. Problem now is who could be thinking about me at that time of the morning. And if you are, can you please refrain from doing so between the hours of 12 and 7 am. Thanks. Much appreciated.

Anyway, things have been.... well nuts. This is honestly the hardest point of my life. I am still sick of school. I don't know what’s going on, but I'm sick and tired of being so goddamn sick and tired. I'm totally screwed and no matter what I do, I’m fucked up.



Yeah yeah right, I know. I know there's always going to be someone you can't make happy. There's always going to be someone who thinks they know better and gets glee from putting you down. Sometimes doing the right thing is the hardest thing you've ever done.

I tried to please everyone once. That of course didn't work out. I then tried to just to make myself happy. That went just as badly. I wish the world wasn't so fucking judgmental. If we could make it that way, the world could be damn near perfect. No one says you have to agree with them. Just step back and think. That would make all the difference in the world to someone like me.

It’s hard to quit caring about what other people think when everyone is against you.

And yeah yeah yeah yeah I sort of feel inferior about my classmates. I hate the damn feeling even though I can sense that I’m far way better than them. Weird. And yeah, I love my mother. I love her a lot. But there is no way in hell I'm ever going to get her to understand that my course is driving me insane that’s why I always ditch my classes. But yeah, I’m still aware of my shortcomings.

Fuck.

I wish life had save points. Then I'd just have to remember to save every 10 minutes or so.

So there, once finals are done, I'll be back to regular posting. Until then.

Labels: accountancy, college, cutting classes, finals, rants

Last na cut ko na yung kanina. Mag-aaral ako ng mabuti para sa mga long exams ko this week. At mas lalo akong mag-aaral para sa finals ko next week. Babawasan ko na ang pagbabad sa internet. Mag-aaral ako para mataas grades ko. Promise yan. Promise!


Good afternoon.

I am concerned that I have not written anything of substance in my blog. This is quite surprising for me because I am by nature a substantial person. Lol. I’m just kidding. And I know a lot of you would disagree.

I woke up at 3 this morning. Usually when this happens to me I have something to think about or something that I have to do. It’s my body’s mechanism to let me know. It’s like the other day; I woke up at the same time and instantly realized that I had not turned the alarm on before I went to sleep. So I did it and promptly fell asleep. This time around, no thoughts. No burning activity to do anything. So I was laying there racking my brains out. And still nothing. And then I got to thinking about the conversation I had with my cousin last last year?. She said that when this happens, someone is thinking or talking about you. I agreed with her then. Problem now is who could be thinking about me at that time of the morning. And if you are, can you please refrain from doing so between the hours of 12 and 7 am. Thanks. Much appreciated.

Anyway, things have been.... well nuts. This is honestly the hardest point of my life. I am still sick of school. I don't know what’s going on, but I'm sick and tired of being so goddamn sick and tired. I'm totally screwed and no matter what I do, I’m fucked up.



Yeah yeah right, I know. I know there's always going to be someone you can't make happy. There's always going to be someone who thinks they know better and gets glee from putting you down. Sometimes doing the right thing is the hardest thing you've ever done.

I tried to please everyone once. That of course didn't work out. I then tried to just to make myself happy. That went just as badly. I wish the world wasn't so fucking judgmental. If we could make it that way, the world could be damn near perfect. No one says you have to agree with them. Just step back and think. That would make all the difference in the world to someone like me.

It’s hard to quit caring about what other people think when everyone is against you.

And yeah yeah yeah yeah I sort of feel inferior about my classmates. I hate the damn feeling even though I can sense that I’m far way better than them. Weird. And yeah, I love my mother. I love her a lot. But there is no way in hell I'm ever going to get her to understand that my course is driving me insane that’s why I always ditch my classes. But yeah, I’m still aware of my shortcomings.

Fuck.

I wish life had save points. Then I'd just have to remember to save every 10 minutes or so.

So there, once finals are done, I'll be back to regular posting. Until then.

Labels: accountancy, college, cutting classes, finals, rants